Friday, 13 December 2013

得不到的付出,要懂得适可而止

假如你想要一件东西,就放它走。
它若能回来找你,就永远属于你;它若不回来,那根本就不是你的。


又是考试期间了.很累.可是感觉没有读到什么.
快快考完, 让我回家, 好吗?
其他的, 真的不求了. 很累.

对于很多东西都很累.
考试, 只不过就一张张文字.
可是, 就不喜欢比较的那种感觉.

朋友时常问, 读到哪里?
问了后说了也是不信, 问来干?
有利益有要求才对你好点, 有什么意义? :)
有些话,说与不说,都是伤害 。有些人,留与不留,都会离开.

有时候, 朋友之间, 不用说话, 就可以感受到互相支持的.
说实在, 我还在寻找着.

也很感恩, 身边有些朋友真的是真心付出的, 谢谢你们.

朋友多, 知心朋友没有几个.
你说怎样的我, 能走到哪里?



突然就想起中学时期的朋友, 真的, 我很想念你们.

老天在送你一个大礼物时,都会用重重困难做包装.
人生嘛,就是笑笑别人,顺便再让别人笑笑.

这个世界不缺少冷漠,没有人愿意聆听你的倾诉,怜悯你的软弱,一切需要你独自承受,逼迫你负重前行。万箭穿心痛不欲生的时候,告诉自己千万要挺住,在坚韧中厚重坚强的底座;黑夜降临独领孤独的时候,那就默念前方的风景,享受暗夜中的旅行。当你穿越了一段荒芜,你才能品尝出人生的百味。

而我听见  下雨的声音
想起你用唇语  说爱情
幸福也可以  很安静
我付出一直  很小心
终于听见  下雨的声音
于是我的世界  被吵醒
就怕情绪红  了眼睛
不舍的泪在  彼此的  脸上透明

加油.
一切都会过去的.







Tuesday, 3 December 2013

0231

夜, 231AM.
听的不是音乐, 是自己的心情.
晚安.
只属自己的夜晚, 你可以尽释.心中的一切.

当世界如果只剩下我一人, 
我会问到...
大家呢? 
怎么不一起走?

有时候,  自己一人, 也真的要走下去了.
没人会把你当全世界.
你也不然这样做.

微笑可以一挂人.
哭泣, 可以一人.


Sunday, 27 October 2013

听见下雨的声音28.10



Closing my eyes, for a moment, think deeply.
What I really need? 

Life is always like that.
Sometimes, you have to take it easy for some barriers or obstacles.
Third study week is coming, and I, just too tired for all the things.

Society stuffs, almost settle. Planning is always tired, really.
To be a good leader, is not a easy job at all.
We have to share, not teach.
We have to lead, not force.
We have to serve, not ask.
We have to be positive, not give up.

Servant leadership, I'll work hard to fulfill.

How to make yourself relax and comfort? For me, music and sleep, rest.

This semester is a short one, 7 weeks, 3 passed.
I'm just worrying what will be the result for this semester. 
I can't only focus on my studies, responsibility is there.
Yet, is true, We should't just waste our three years just focusing on study.
So, once entered, try my best in all the fields.

If you keep saying that I'm that kind of selfish, I'll just keep silent. Because, I know, what am I doing all the moments now. I'm not that kind which you're thinking, but if you insist by holding your stand, I'll accept. 
I need, understanding. But, disappeared. 
Understanding and trust, really playing an important here.
Perhaps, this is God's plan for us, to get to know more about ourselves and keep improving.
I know, there will be another plan which is prepared for us :)


On bed. 
Michael.

Saturday, 14 September 2013

My dream.

Here is the second part from my Twitter. Wahaha :)


Father, thank you for giving me a chance, to study here, to be here, to work hard and shine your good name. Amen.


Ya, HongLeongBank Master Scholarship 2013, Why is 2013????
Why not 2015?
I can't do anything for this. Sad case.
So, during my year, I hope that this chance still be provided.
I cannot guarantee that I'm able to obtain a first class degree and/or Cgpa 3.7 and above.
Indeed, I will try my best and do my Best!
I know, sometimes, It's just so difficult to tell yourself, try your best, you can do it.

You know? It's just too hard to do this.
People will feel demotivated, will feel lazy, sadness will come some of the times.
If during that time, if I do receive the MREPC scholarship, I think I will regret now.
Thank God for making this decision for me.You are awesome.
I feel blessed.
Michael, Work Hard. Maintain your CGPA, if not, makan rumput!


Really, I really hope that, after my undergraduate studies over here, I'd able to enroll into any one of UK universities there. I know, some of you might think that Michael is dreaming, it's impossible.

My family background is not so good, if saying, really cannot afford me go for UK for master degree. But, I really wish I could be there. I'm not saying about the title,the name, is about the experience there.
And, If you do know me, you know the another reason is that, I came from there, Yes.
Going back homeland is just a wonderful thing.
But, you know, my English level is just too bad, always not able to get an A in my tests. T.T
LSE, my dream school. HEHE.

For those, my friends,  who are able to study abroad, really, you are blessed right now.
But then, I know, all my friends, are studying very very hard over there, So , I must follow them!!! HAHA

Ya, for the family side, don't ever blame your family,saying that they can't afford your to study abroad , the study fees, can't afford to buy you Birkenstock, Timberland, Boy London. You know? They are giving you their best! Giving you what they can.

My family really, giving their best to me. My grandmum, my mum, all aunties, they do help me alot, from my primary school, I think is kindergarden, all fees, supported by them. If you ask what I'm owing them? I will say, is my life.
I wish to go back there, to chase back, during my childhood, when I was a baby, how's that?
I love my childhood, even now. Nothing can stop me from loving my family.
One day, no matter how, I will reciprocate all of you, with my life, my soul, all in all, and my Lord.

Everyone will have different starting point, yet, I believe, One day, we will meet at the same finishing point with hard work, believe, trust and faith complied.

I really craving for that, hope that I would have the chance, to chase my dream, my goal. :)

Okay la, off, continue your damn boring MBM slides, textbooks and notes.
Remember, if you need a rest, just go for that .
After that , do remember come beck with what you should do.
Talk is easy, but quite difficult to work on it. AHAHA
Talk is cheap, you know why? Because supply more than demand, so price will drop.
Awesome theory.
Now the time is 0204 15September2013.
I just can say, this is a special month, September :)
Michael, don't be jealous to others, you know?
You are having the best which given by Lord.

For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.
Don't worry about anything, instead, pray about everything.
Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

Okay, see you in London. :)
Night world.


Wednesday, 4 September 2013

一键一键

大哥,要考试了...还在这里一键一键的干嘛..

心里的感受, 有谁能懂呢..
想找个人讲讲话..可是没有..
我是我, 我觉得自己这样做是对, 就这样做而已.
现在...想想别人的感受..知道当时的自己是否...做的不好?

可是, 再许下什么承若其实也没有用了..
大家不再有那个相信的感觉...我自己也不会再许下什么.
其实大家都没错, 只是有些东西不在了.
找不回了..真的...是那个感觉.
如果我说我努力过了, 也不会相信.
种种的东西, 慢慢的大家讲出来.
其实, 真的很好, 大家成长了.

很想说的是...东西不容易放下.
回忆都是美好的 :)
让自己陶醉在另一个世界, 暂时·忘了这复杂的世界, 做回自己吧.

宅男咯这样...哈哈...
Lily Collins 啊!!! 

真的, 让自己的心情好起来.
我真的不懂如何去表达, 现在的我, 是谁?


很想现在就逃离这里.
时间是不会亏待我们的, 人生更加是不会 !
考试尽力吧, 心里上很累了!!!
我不想理, 就真的可以不理了...真的.

也许, 固执就是这个意思.
世人, 晚安.